Exhausted

Mom life is exhausting. It tires me out, and by the end of the day, if I'm not already in bed myself, I sit, look at the piles of mess, ignore it, and then find just enough strength and energy to pump before I pass out. Then, occasionally, more like rarely, there's this room filled with silence, sleeping babies and husband. I can actually think to myself. I can hear my own voice and the sound of the ceiling fan. It's nice.

I start thinking about my day, and wonder where it went and how it went. Often times I feel like I'm an okay mom, but then there are some days I question every thing I do; every aspect of how I parent Parker and Reid. I talk to myself out loud at times (I know I'm not the only one) trying to convince myself that rough days exist, and "off" days are expected. It's that haunting word "guilt" or "doubt" that creeps up on the heart of us moms, and more often than not gets the best of us. It amazes me how flesh sucking guilt can be, and well, it stinks. BUT, there's something so beautiful about it all. God put ME in charge of these amazing little boys because HE knew I was the perfect fit for Parker and Reid, no matter how much I doubt myself. Hard days come. But they go too. The devil tries so hard to plant negativity into our hearts and minds, but I know there's a God, my God, far more powerful than the devil himself. I must stand firm, believe Gods word, and I'm on my way to victory; on my way to less stressful, guilt-free days.

The Lord IS my strength and yes, even in parenting when I'm beyond exhausted. Parenting is a hard job. If any man says otherwise, let them keep 2+ children ALONE for several days. Heck, some only need a couple hours :-) This is besides the point.

Everything you do, say and plant in your children effect them for the rest of their lives. It's a big responsibility, but every aspect is so worth it. Especially, these two little guys that fill my heart with so much joy!